Surprise!!! Your husband is having 2 eye surgeries back to back just weeks before your daughter's wedding, just weeks after a not so well hernia surgery which cancelled our last Thanksgiving with our family in Maryland!!!
Surprise!!! You're in stage 3 adrenal exhaustion with undetectable hormone levels!!!
Surprise!!! Your only daughter's wedding is just around the corner!!!
Surprise!!! "We're pregnant!!!" You're going to be a Nana!!! Such great sadness...How could you do this...NOW!?!
Surprise!!! It's time to pack the U-Haul truck and say good bye to all you've ever known!!!
Surprise!!! You get to drive 1400 miles with 2 dogs in the car for 2 very LONG days!!!
Surprise!!! You get to unpack your new home all alone!!!
Surprise!!! You get to live alone for 3 LONG months!!!
Surprise!!! Your only daughter calls to tell you she's expecting her first child!!! NO! How could you do this to me!!! Now.
Surprise!!! There are no ladies Bible Studies and no one cares that you are alone!!!
Surprise!!! Your first Grand Little arrived early and you are now a Nana just in time for Christmas!!!
Surprise!!! You get to celebrate Thanksgiving, Christmas and every other holiday ALONE!!!
Surprise!!! No one cares!!!
"Open wide your mouth and I will fill it! With Honey from the Rock I would satisfy you!"
Ps 81:10, 16
God who sees me
SMASHED! CRUSHED! DEMOLISHED!
It wasn't until summer 2018, that I clearly heard the Holy Spirit reverberate with a loud but gentle voice:
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!!!
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!!!
Finally, it was like a lightbulb moment....and I said out loud....OH!!!! I GET IT!!! IT'S NOT ABOUT ME!!! IT'S ABOUT YOU DOING A WORK IN "THEM"...and whoever that prayer was about...God was working in "them". Of course through this, He's working in me too....but what He was doing wasn't about me.
He has just called me to STAND...and when I've done everything…STAND.
El-roi The God who sees me