No Fear In Love
She has great life lessons to teach as we let go of the control when using watercolor....it has a life of it's own!
Watch it move.
I couldn't of planned that perfect heart eye. Usually my colors respect the pencil lines. But not this time!
So, I went with it.
I Let Go!
When we were finished Brandi instructed us to write on our picture whatever we were feeling. Wherever God was leading us.
Matthew 6 came to me.
"Therefore, I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Seek First His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well."
We are going through A LOT of changes this year....A LOT!
The only way I can do this is by trusting my Heavenly Father. I know he cares for me more than the birds of the air. Each Winter here in Maryland reminds me of God's love. He always provides for the birds after a snow storm. I leave sunflowers standing and seed heads from weeds or flowers for them to forage. Others throw birdseed. But they are always provided for. I've never found a dead bird on the snow.
My heart is truly going through the spin cycle right now. I'm heading back to Texas to actually look at homes we've picked out. It's really happening. "My" cousin is going with me and if I "feel" strongly about a place then The Hired Hand will fly down for a weekend and then it'll be a done deal. I can't explain how I'm feeling.....it's really deep....it's not a head decision, it's coming straight out of my heart. He knows it too. He knows that I'll be praying as I'm discerning. I want a space where I can create. A space where we can be. Community. Home Sweet Home.
After I get back, we're throwing The Farmer's Daughter a bridal shower! And then she is getting married April 24. Be still my heart! I truly won't be able to contain myself....she has held a special place in my heart. My first born. My daughter. Each of our children are a pure miracle.....aren't they all. Some more than others.
Then before I know it, May 1 will arrive with the BIG announcement of retirement to his supervisor! Then it's just a matter of time until November rolls around and we drive away.
I think I'll be doing more out of control watercolor just to remind myself that I'm never really in control. Dropping color and discerning what I should make out of a mess of color!!! Deep, I'm telling you...Deep!
But no matter what comes, I can face it with the strength and courage of one who puts her trust in her Heavenly Father.
I've got this!!!
I can Do This!!!
I will be ok!